I want to give it all - air supply


Here I am again
I've come to see you smile
I know you understand
I have to say again
It's only for a while

And still you're always here
Just waiting for my call
I wish I knew a way
To give more than I do
I want to give it all

It doesn't happen every day
But it happened to me once before
Those early years I threw away
Now I only have to hear your voice
To make me feel so sure
That your love is why
I want to give it all

Don't the minutes fly
And hours just seem so few
With days apart so long
It's hard to spend my time
When I'm so far from you

And still you're always here
Just waiting for my call
I wish I knew a way
To give more than I do
I want to give it all

It doesn't happen every day
But it happened to me once before
Those early years I threw away
Now I only have to hear your voice
To make me feel so sure
That your love is why
I want to give it all

the tears i cry you do not see...

my world's been turned upside down.

what crime did i do to displease you?

let me turn the tables for a while...have you ever asked me if you had hurt me?

many times yes, but i kept it from you.

i didnt want you to feel uncomfortable, sorry can be the hardest word to say.

but i do not rage against the hurt, nor am i angry with you.

i had wanted so much to make you happy and to keep you happy

i guess my demons got in the way.

i am upset, so down.

Why?

Why?

I'm spending my morning crying with all m y might into my pillow.

why?

it was just a simple mistake that i did, i am sorry about it, and yes i could've avoided that but why take down all that we had all these years?

i know you have a short temper, i have been at the receiving end of it so many times, and all my fault. i am so upset, but i am not angry with you. i am never angry with you, i love you.

i would have gone to the ends of the world to be with you. i would have happily decided to abandon my career and stay home and take care of you and keep you happy.

i've worked so hard to change and to reach out to you...i would have risked your vilest temper and your angry words

i love you not because of what you have, i would have loved you just the same if you had been poor. i would still love you no matter what you are.  i love you and my heart and soul is all i have to give to you.

i'd give it all to even have you look upon me kindly again....

Hello Again

I know I've deleted my previous blog here, thinking it wouldn't be necessary for me anymore....I was wrong. I've hit rock bottom today. My heart and has been suddenly thrown out again, and it's all my fault.